We’re Back

Well it has been a while since I have wrote.

This covid-19 stuff is still coming in hot all around us. No one ever prepares you to find out you’re pregnant with baby number 3 during a pandemic. 

So April 24th, 25th 26th and 27th, I was just feeling like I was pregnant so I took a test ever single day. Everyday I was getting what I thought were evaplines then finally I caved, on the 27th I took a digital test because, I was supposed to have my period but didn’t. Bam in perfect letters I got the words pregnant on my lunch hour. Lol 

I was sitting on the phone with one of my best friends Hunter and she talked to me while I cried happy tears and tears of fear. I mean April was a hard month between being stuck working from home and our youngest having surgery on his arm. We never thought we would see a positive pregnancy test. I had no symptoms of pregnancy for the first month I felt amazing.

Finally around middle of May the morning sickness kicked in full force causing me to not be able to even focus on my work much less my kiddos I already have. But I took it as a good sign since I wasn’t going to be seen till June 24th for my first appointment. I don’t mind being pregnant I actually love it. 

Let’s fast forward to June I was starting to get very stressed out at work and at home and I was more angry and “bitchy” to not only my husband but my kiddos too. I felt like I was constantly yelling and no one seemed to care. June 13th I was getting my kiddos ready to head to a graduation party that afternoon and a wedding that evening when I went to get their socks I felt a huge gush of blood. So I calmly walked into the bathroom yelled to my husband I’m bleeding and checked what was going on. 

The blood felt like it was pouring out of me. I couldn’t believe the amount of blood. Obviously pregnant I had no pads so I dug into my purse for a liner because I had no choice to try that. I told my husband I was going to the hospital and left. When I got into my car I realized I needed gas. So I put $5 and sped to the hospital. I got there check in and sat maybe 3 minutes and they brought me back. The doctor did a pelvic exam and told me I had minimal bleeding. My cervixs was closed I had no cramping and no pain at all. I just figured I was having a miscarriage and there was nothing, I could do about it. They had an ultrasound tech come in and that was the first time I was able to see the baby. 

Baby was fine heart beat of 160. But the minute I sat up from my ultrasound I felt a huge pool of blood start to form underneath me. The nurses were amazing. They brought me a new sheet and a pad as I could just feel the blood puddle forming. Then the doctor told me I had an retroplacental abruption. Which was basically a ruptured placenta. They told me there was nothing they could do and follow up with my regular OB. I was very upset becaue I got no OB consult and it was a Saturday so obviously I can’t talk to my OB. 

So I spent the evening at the wedding sitting on my butt while my kids played and had fun I sat in a chair. We hadn’t announced the pregnancy so I didn’t want people knowing what was going on and why I wasn’t dancing. I sent an email with a picture to my OB of the puddle I sat up in, which I was told was minimal bleeding. Then I proceeded to call them right away Monday morning. They got me scheduled the next day for ultrasound and a follow up with an OB. 

I woke up the next morning feeling great. I got ready for work no big deal got to work was walking Into work and felt the blood starting to gush again. So I went into work calmly and put my stuff down and walked to the bathroom. I checked everything and called my ob and them know it was happening again. So they were aware before my appointment what was going on. My appointment was at 2 pm so I worked till 12. I went to my appointment thinking this is it I’m not going to get that first snuggle with my new little pumpkin. Ultrasound heartbeat was 169 and baby was very active. They then started measuring a big black blob by baby. 10 cm long. I thought okay that’s only 10 cm. They finished the ultrasound and put me I. The doctors office . She came in and told me I didn’t infact have a retroplacental abruption I have what is called a subchorionic hematoma. 

They told me I needed to come back the following week for another appointment. So they had me scheduled yet for the 24th and sent me home. The week seemed to drag but the bleeding had stopped. So I felt great no bleeding was good! The next appointment came and the hematoma was still measuring at 10cm and they told that I was being referred out to  a high risk specialist to handle my care. They called me to schedule me the next weeks for another ultrasound that was my 4th in 3 weeks. 

I met with the high risk doctor for the first time and he was great I got the information I wanted to get and heard the scary risks. There is a 50/50 chance I will have a late term miscarriage or stillbirth or even a premature delivery.  I just remember spending a lot of my time crying becaue I was so scared of something happening. I thankfully get to see baby growing every week right now and they have been watching my clot which it finally clicked 10 cm is about 4 inches so it’s not small. 

Thankfully last Tuesday they told me the clot had shrunk and instead of 10 cm it is at 9cmnow. Which is a step in the right direction. My family would love the continued thoughts and prayers as we continue with the pregnancy to bring baby number 3 into this crazy messed up world. We don’t care of baby is a boy or girl we just want baby to survive and be healthy. The goal is to keep baby in until 24 weeks. Then medical interventions will be made to help baby fight for his or her life. Due to the crazy circumstances surrounding this pregnancy we are so excited to keep the gender between us and close friends and family until Rhori Grace or Royce Bennett decides to make an appearance! We would love to have baby stay put until December as we are due January 5, 2021!